I’ve had such a strong urge to write these last few weeks. I never really know what about, but my brain, heart and Soul just keep pushing me to jump on here and write and the second I do, I go blank. I decided to grab a cup of tea and step into my bedroom with a pen and a notebook where a stream of light was sneaking through my blinds. Just like that, the words started to flow. It was easy to sit down and write something once I realized the lesson I was learning. My appreciation for the technology available to us today is exponential, but there is nothing like good ole pen and paper. It was pretty clear to me that it’s SO important to be in a space where you just naturally move, where the creativity flows (there are so many difference kinds of creativity but that's a whole other topic…maybe I’ll touch on that one day lol). Nothing should be forced, ever.
I’ve been in positions where I felt stagnant, almost stuck. Where it’s like I’m pushing on a brick wall expecting it to move rather than stepping aside to see that there’s a door just inches from where I am. I was always taught to believe that you must work hard for everything, so I was going to keep pushing until that brick wall finally budged. Let me tell you, there’s a huge difference between working hard at things you love and the torture we tend to put ourselves through when we work hard at something we don’t feel passionate about.
During each of these situations it was very clear that I had an inner knowing that I wasn’t where I wanted to be and that scared the hell out of me. Make a change? Take a risk? What about (fill in the blank) and what about (fill in the blank)??? Who was I to ‘ruin’ something amazing simply because I wasn’t feeling as free and creative as I wanted? Who was I to ‘break’ people because this inner knowing was beating me upside the head every moment of the day? Who was I to ‘sacrifice’ all that everyone knew and expected of me because I wanted to take a step towards a different path? Well, who was I not to?
I’ve come to terms with the fact that I am going to hurt people. I am going to make people angry. I am going to offend someone. I am going to disappoint people. I’ve also come to understand that if I’m not happy, if I’m not in ‘my creative space’, I am not serving anyone. Manifesting my desires becomes this process of being overtired and overworked, I lack motivation and my health suffers. Does following that inner voice, for a lack of better words, suck, sometimes? Absolutely. Is it always worth it? You bet your bottom dollar it is!
There is no handbook to follow, no single person who knows you like you do. The simplest quote has become my most in depth process in my life and that’s ‘do what makes you happy’. Sometimes there are tears and good byes, feelings of being scared and alone, questions with out answers (they'll come eventually) and that’s ok, that’s part of the process. Endings are always sad and then slowly, but surely, they open you up to living in that creative space, where desires flow and manifesting is your natural law of living. You deserve that. Find your space, fill it with all your intentions, dreams and desires and give thanks for that inner knowing that led you there. Those brick walls are fear and it's time to step back and see the doors that are just a step away. I believe in you and your dreams.
xo M
I’ve been in positions where I felt stagnant, almost stuck. Where it’s like I’m pushing on a brick wall expecting it to move rather than stepping aside to see that there’s a door just inches from where I am. I was always taught to believe that you must work hard for everything, so I was going to keep pushing until that brick wall finally budged. Let me tell you, there’s a huge difference between working hard at things you love and the torture we tend to put ourselves through when we work hard at something we don’t feel passionate about.
During each of these situations it was very clear that I had an inner knowing that I wasn’t where I wanted to be and that scared the hell out of me. Make a change? Take a risk? What about (fill in the blank) and what about (fill in the blank)??? Who was I to ‘ruin’ something amazing simply because I wasn’t feeling as free and creative as I wanted? Who was I to ‘break’ people because this inner knowing was beating me upside the head every moment of the day? Who was I to ‘sacrifice’ all that everyone knew and expected of me because I wanted to take a step towards a different path? Well, who was I not to?
I’ve come to terms with the fact that I am going to hurt people. I am going to make people angry. I am going to offend someone. I am going to disappoint people. I’ve also come to understand that if I’m not happy, if I’m not in ‘my creative space’, I am not serving anyone. Manifesting my desires becomes this process of being overtired and overworked, I lack motivation and my health suffers. Does following that inner voice, for a lack of better words, suck, sometimes? Absolutely. Is it always worth it? You bet your bottom dollar it is!
There is no handbook to follow, no single person who knows you like you do. The simplest quote has become my most in depth process in my life and that’s ‘do what makes you happy’. Sometimes there are tears and good byes, feelings of being scared and alone, questions with out answers (they'll come eventually) and that’s ok, that’s part of the process. Endings are always sad and then slowly, but surely, they open you up to living in that creative space, where desires flow and manifesting is your natural law of living. You deserve that. Find your space, fill it with all your intentions, dreams and desires and give thanks for that inner knowing that led you there. Those brick walls are fear and it's time to step back and see the doors that are just a step away. I believe in you and your dreams.
xo M